Behind the eyes...

Whats going on in your mind? What is BEHIND your eyes? Have you ever let anyone in? From what little experience I have in life, I am learning that there is more than just the eyes to the picture...

Have you ever tried to be in relationship with someone who you realized never truly let you know their heart, or what was going on inside? I am the kind of person who's sole desire is to see the world behind your eyes. I want to be involved, I have a need to be trusted. To lose someones trust is my greatest fear...and one of my greatest pains. Maybe it is because I am very transparent, but I try to let people see what is really going on behind my eyes. 

What is life without being vulnerable? YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE SO TOUGH! If you get any morsel of idea out of this little post, let it be this. Let that person in. I KNOW you have been hurt in the past...I KNOW it's hard to trust again...but it only hurts you, and the person who just wants to see YOU and who you really are...

I recently found a song that kinda got this idea brewing in my head, by Jon Foreman...

Behind Your Eyes

If you let your feelings go, dear
It's scary what you'll find
I find I'm on your street, dear
And you're always on my mind
And no one need to know
That you let me in tonight
That you let me see the world
That you let me see the world
Behind your eyes
I want to see us work, dear
To reach the other side
Our treachery is love, dear
We're on both ends of the fight
We're fighting for ourselves
Fighting for our lives
Would you let me see
The world behind your eyes
And no one needs to know
How scared we are tonight
Would you let me see the world
Behind your eyes

That person cares so much about you that they want to see who you are. They will look past all of your shortcoming, hoping you will do the same. I challenge you...just a piece. Just start with one piece of your world. 

Let them in...they care about you more than you know...

I make a challenge to you. Let them see you for who you are. Let them in, even if it's just a little bit at a time, and you will realize that it's not just for them, it's for you.

Let's go back to the start...

Life. You feel you've got it going, that everything is going great...but you get hit with a curveball. It's easy to get bitter; so easy to get angry. But why bother.... It doesn't fix anything. I choose to look at myself, see what I did wrong and fix it. Maybe I will get a second chance, maybe not. But regardless, I do it for ME. If I fix myself, the rest will fall into place. If I deal with my issues, others' won't seem so bad. Yes, it's my fault. But I intend to fix it. I won't rest until I'm different. I won't be content till I have changed. And if that chance never comes again, I'm still better because it crashed the first time. If life hadn't dealt me a curveball, I wouldn't have seen the issue in the first place. 

Father, help me. You know me, and you know my personality and all of my shortcomings. You know my issue that I have with anger, and of how it controls how I treat the people. I ask that as I go about my day, that you would help me change the way I act. I pray that you would give me a loving heart. That when I get frustrated, I wouldn’t take it out on others, but that you would give me peace. I need you to remove this controlling attitude that I have and that I would no longer feel that I am entitled to always being right.  I pray that you would develop these changes in me and that others would see it. In your name, Amen.

Now you see it too. If you read this, and happen to see me...ask me if I've prayed today. Who knows...you could make a difference in my life. 

The scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And nurse me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m going back to the start